Wednesday, April 27, 2011

Tiny Giraffe Studio @ Etsy

Tiny Giraffe Studio, my art business I'm trying to get off the ground, is now on Etsy with a whopping 2 items lol.  I've been busy with other things!!!

the Tiny Giraffe Blog will still be hosted by me, but items are not available for purchase on the blog.  As I post art/crafts, I will note in the blog post if it is available in the TGS etsy shop :)


Epic Makeover Giveaway from Vintage Revivals!

my TTC adventure is boring so I will talk about something else.

I submitted two rooms in my house to VINTAGE REVIVALS. I have a house seriously in need of some love, so I decided to enter... How people are too lazy to simply write a blog post is beyond me.

HERE is the link. Go here to vote for my totally pathetic living room and/or bedroom

Let me give you the backstory to our home-renovation situation:

In June 2009, my husband and I decided to make a purchase.  We had both screwed up in our youth, and nobody wanted to give us a loan for a mortgage.  We decided to check out a trailer park *collective gasp*!  I was a little less than enthused, being that the trailer parks where I grew up were not very impressive... nobody took care of themselves or their homes, like they had no pride at all.  We all know trailer parks get a bad rap, right?!  So anyway, he took me to LOGAN ESTATES to see what the homes were like there.  I was much surprised to find that it's more like a subdivision... all the homes were newer, no later than MAYBE mid-80's but there were only a couple that old.  Everything is nice and new looking, the properties were larger in size than I had seen... I was REALLY impressed.

And they were willing to finance people with credit issues!!!

After looking at some homes, and sitting down with the loan coordinator, we ended up seeing one that wasn't on the list, as it had recently been moved out of & had the carpet replaced (brand new carpet?! *eyebrows*).  We picked that one!

3 bedrooms, 2 full baths.  Master bath has a garden tub.  I was in love.  I said "This is my house", and it was a done deal.

Fast forward to now, April 2011.  We've started a redo of our kitchen, it's almost completely done, so I didn't choose to include it in the giveaway contest.  I spent most of the last year and a half in beauty school, having been laid off from work a while back, and my husband has this innate ability to get jobs that PROMISE a lot of work, but never seem to actually provide it.

MY HOUSE IS BEIGE.  I can't stand it.  I have been looking at the same junk for almost two years and we don't have a lot of extra cash to start renovations.  I have ideas for my living and bedroom areas, mostly just starting with a paint job!  I have big dreams of paint for these rooms, people, let me tell you!  We are now starting to save our pennies (the ones not dedicated to bills) to visit our RE and talk about the possibility of getting pregnant, since it is so obvious to me it will not happen on our own.  Mandi is a DIY miracle worker, but I doubt very much that she can get me pregnant, so I figured why not try to get her involved in our home-decor disaster.

We watch a lot of the DIY network and see all these cool tricks and tips, but it's just not in our life budget right now. *huge sigh*  Yes, this is basically a PITY ME post.  Pity me and vote for Mandi to come make my house into something utterly fantastic.  We've worked so hard just to stay on our feet and it would be such a BLESSING to us to have someone come in and help us out in our home.

I will leave the voting up to you, and in the meantime I will pray and pray for the Lord to send us in the direction He sees fit.

Thank you for your time and consideration!

Here are the pictures of our living room (nope. I sure didn't clean anything before snapping the pics with my phone):




And here are the pics I snapped of the bedroom (again, no cleaning or straightening up, haha... I'm a busy lady!)





Friday, April 22, 2011

Something to lighten the mood.

So I got some awesome news yesterday... My IFBFF TJ (Army Wife Post) is coming to visit in May. We are getting a hotel downtown GR & wander around getting into mild but undoubtedly funny trouble... I haven't seen that broad since I was in her wedding, I promise! I'm soooooo excited!!!

Thursday, April 14, 2011


CD14 and I am still lightly bleeding. It's brownish with pink. More than anything I'm just annoyed at this point. It's gross and I'm sick of this period, it needs to be over.

I am in bed, crying, having a mini-meltdown. I am totally feeling sorry for myself & having a pity party a I need some ice cream or heads will roll. I am totally Negative Nelly right now. You guys are barking up the wrong tree if you wanna see a rainbow coming out of someone's butt today.

I have gained so much weight these past 3 years. I have terrible skin & it used to be immaculate. I have a facial hair problem that is VERY noticeable and VERY embarrassing. Growing out short hair sucks bc it doesn't look like any kind of good right now.

I feel like my body is giving up on me. I have chronic pain, so working out isn't really @ the top of my list. I need to but I can't afford a gym & I am not Outdoors Girl.

I will never have a baby at this rate, bc I hate so many things about myself that I don't wanna have sex. I'm embarrassed to be in that position bc of the way I look and feel.

how totally fucked up is that?

Monday, April 11, 2011

Yep. Still infertile.

haven't blogged in 6 days... Haven't had much to say other than crabbing about my period. Which is ending, though reluctantly, it seems. I wrote it an eviction notice & it seems to be working.

I have a lot going on in life right now. I'm finally able to work as a hairdresser & I'm doing a job I hate out of necessity. I'm about to open a play that's my 2nd biggest role of all time. Steve is out playing Brother Trucker again.

Today we were talking about possibly not conceiving naturally & possibly not even going through with IVF. I don't know if I'm willing to gamble with $8,000. And that's assuming it works the first time... We have discussed the option of adopting & we are very extremely open to it, and it looks better every day. I might miss being pregnant, but the women in my family do NOT stay small through pregnancy so I might be ok with it, lol.

we also discussed the subject of moving. We don't have much tying us down to this location other than our house. I wanted to pick it up & move it after it's paid for (manufactured home), but maybe we'll just sell it & chase our dreams in Chicago, Vegas or California.

I have to resign myself to the fact that there is very little chance that I will personally be birthing a child from my body... I have to look further down the road beyond the speed bump & try to start LIVING again. I am sooooo depressed.

anyway. Period is ending & doubtful Steve will be home for magical ovulation time. That's sorta where we stand.

Monday, April 4, 2011

AF= Aunt Flow AND April Fool's. Nice.

Hey look! AF came to me on AF Day! The irony is not lost on me.

I'm disappointed, angry & depressed. In lieu of a "real" update I will post this thingie I stole from someone else & filled out. I talk about being smart, which will sound pompous, but so be it. I'm tired of dumbing myself down for others.

I AM: Impatient.  Creative.  Messy.

I SAID: I didn't want to work at ______ and now I am.  I am a sellout & I am ashamed of myself.

I WANT: More than I should ask for, which is everything I'll never have.

I WISH: answers came in neat little packages and dreams were easily realized.

I HATE: clowns.  Storms.  Self-righteous people.  Adult bullies.

I MISS: my grandma. Oh God my heart aches for her.

I FEAR: judgement.  Pain.  Being alone.

I HEAR: thunder.  Fan.  Steve breathing.

I WONDER: if I'll ever do something that makes me truly happy.

I REGRET: not getting my teeth straightened.  Gaining a ton of weight.  Staying in Michigan.

I AM NOT: aloof.  Empty-headed.  Mean.

I DANCE: When I do the dishes.

I SING: as often as humanly possible.  It is my life's one true joy.

I AM NOT ALWAYS: selfless, but I try.

I MADE: a dozen terrible decisions.  Also, beautiful music.

I WRITE: crappy lyrics. Notes to myself (I'm very forgetful)

I CONFUSE: everyone, because I talk like an intelligent person & nobody gets my humor.  

I NEED: to be better.  Feel better, live better, DO BETTER.

I SHOULD: count my blessings.  Floss more often.  Learn to organize.

I START: lots of projects

I FINISH: very few projects

I BELIEVE: the world has more to offer me if I learned to step outside my comfort zone.

I KNOW: I will survive

I CAN: sing.  Sing your ass off.

I CANT: do anything right (so it seems)

I SEE: a fading vision of who I used to be.  A terrible reflection in the mirrors.

I BLOG: Personal struggles & sell my artwork ( &

I READ: Diana Gabaldon, Janet Evanovich & Wikipedia.

I AM AROUSED BY: Almost any portrayer of Superman.  Comics.

IT PISSES ME OFF: when people make fun of me for being smarter than them.  Why is it so bad to be smart instead of vapid & meat-headed???

I FIND: my keys in the door of my house *facepalm*

I LIKE: everything bad for me.

I LOVE: my cat.  Sometimes I think he's the only one that GETS me.