Thursday, April 14, 2011


CD14 and I am still lightly bleeding. It's brownish with pink. More than anything I'm just annoyed at this point. It's gross and I'm sick of this period, it needs to be over.

I am in bed, crying, having a mini-meltdown. I am totally feeling sorry for myself & having a pity party a I need some ice cream or heads will roll. I am totally Negative Nelly right now. You guys are barking up the wrong tree if you wanna see a rainbow coming out of someone's butt today.

I have gained so much weight these past 3 years. I have terrible skin & it used to be immaculate. I have a facial hair problem that is VERY noticeable and VERY embarrassing. Growing out short hair sucks bc it doesn't look like any kind of good right now.

I feel like my body is giving up on me. I have chronic pain, so working out isn't really @ the top of my list. I need to but I can't afford a gym & I am not Outdoors Girl.

I will never have a baby at this rate, bc I hate so many things about myself that I don't wanna have sex. I'm embarrassed to be in that position bc of the way I look and feel.

how totally fucked up is that?


  1. Dislike! Jen, you are beautiful and funny and supportive! I don't like to see you being so Debbie Downer! Hugs for you!

  2. What's your favorite kind of ice cream, I'll try to bring it to rehearsal tomorrow.

  3. You don't have to do that! Then I'll have to share with the other kids & I do not share well (no Barney during my fundamental years).

    incidentally it's Hudsonvilles cake batter. Unless I'm feeling fancy then it's ben+jerrys strawberry fro-yo, but frozen yogurt makes me feel like I should be doing yoga or something weird like that.

  4. OK...

    1) You are totally allowed a pity party, but you can't get picky about the ice cream. I'm going to hijack an ice cream truck and drive it to MI, and you're going to have to eat whatever is in there.

    2) As pretty as they may look, rainbows that come out of your butt still smell like poo. So no butt rainbows, please!

    3) You are gorgeous. I don't care what you think. This is somewhere where you get absolutely no say. I override you.

    4) There are ways to get pregnant without sex. However, these all require showing your girly bits to a bunch of random strangers... so this is much less desirable!!

    5) I love you!!